I’m Writing A Book!

Fifteen years ago, God impressed it on my heart to write a book. And, for fifteen years, I’ve been running from it. The night before Christiano passed away, just about seven hours before the phone call that forever altered our lives, my husband, Chris, brought me home an iPad. I opened it up and he had written a ‘note’ to me. It read, ‘I got this for you so you can start your book. I believe in you.’ I remember feeling ready in that moment; ready to obey what God has spoken to my heart so many years ago; ready to put the long hours of work in and discipline myself accordingly; ready to share the raw details of my life and to show the world God’s beautiful redemption story.
But, at 6:41 am, on October 24th, everything changed. My story changed, my view of God became overshadowed by the darkness that flooded my being, my life – forever altered. ‘Who would be able to see the goodness of God in my life now?’ ‘Why would anyone ever read my story?’ That’s what I’ve spent the last year asking.
Over the last ten years, my life had been completely transformed, from the ugliest of ash to the most beautiful picture of God’s grace. But, I now felt it had been turned back; this time to the blackest and darkest soot I’d ever seen. And, I’ve spent many days doubting God’s plan for me; associating the book with what followed a few short hours after my heart’s declaration to do this thing.
Yet, somehow, fourteen months later, God is STILL being glorified. People STILL see beauty through the mess; sometimes, even I see beauty in my life.
All of this is to say…
Today is the day! Today, I begin the book that God will author through me. I’ve made a declaration to Him, and now I declare to all of you! Please, please, pray for me, and, PLEASE, hold me accountable! Let me know your thoughts, share your heart with me, ask me how it’s going, and, most of all, be honest with me – as the Lord leads this project and finished what He started in me fifteen long years ago. ❤️

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