Love

Every year on Valentine's Day, we lay out four boxes of chocolates. This year, there lay only three. What I would give to love on my eldest son today; to hold him and for him to hold me. Christiano was just over a week old on his first Valentine's Day, and I remember being so in …

He Is Still The Birthday Boy

I brace myself for each new day, especially the significant ones. Holidays, snow days, school vacation days, Sundays, and birthdays. I anticipate all of these days with great despair because each special day that passes reminds me of Christiano's permanent residence and tells me again that he isn't coming back here. On February 6th, Christiano …

Merging Memories

I want Christiano to be remembered forever, not just the cliche 'never forgotten.' I want his memory to live on through those who were impacted by him. It is difficult watching people move forward with their lives. I know that we all have to go on; to move forward. Will I ever have the strength …